My 2 cents on Caitlyn & Courage
My eyes can’t take anymore Caitlyn Jenner headlines or memes …
And now the outrage over the ESPY award for courage.
Do I think ESPN picked the right person for the award? Not so much. But I also don’t think an award trumps admiration and if you have someone you think more worthy – celebrate them! Pay them respect and do something in their honor.
There are many ways to be courageous. And many who do it day in and day out, without accolades. And those who TRULY serve, don’t WANT accolades. They do what they do, because it’s who they inherently are. *Tangent* It’s a pet peeve of mine when someone toots their own horn about how they were of service. Sorta sucks the humility and charity out of it in my opinion if you have to tell everyone what you did. *Tangent over*
Back to courage.
Courage: mental or moral strength to venture, persevere, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty.
In my personal opinion, I DO think it courageous to make such a transition in such limelight. I DO think it courageous to follow your heart and soul in spite of such scrutiny.
I hope she can be an inspiration to someone struggling with their own identity. Give them strength to embrace who they are and if they so choose, take the steps to have their outside match their inside.
I want to add, I hope his transition changes some minds and improves tolerance and understanding … then I remembered something she (he at the time) said.
It was the interview with Diane Sawyer.
Jenner was speaking of Russian Nikolay Avilov, whose record he broke during the 1976 Olympic Decathlon. He smiled in a very smarmy way and then commented on Avilov’s appearance today, “He was overweight and out of shape. I won that battle, too.”
My jaw dropped.
If you’re asking for acceptance and tolerance – better empty your pockets of any rocks first.
That was just cruel.
So basically, ‘Accept me while I put someone else down’.
But, male or female – she is still only human.
Let’s hope before being an inspiration – she works on her own tolerance.
Fun with a new app
So I don’t have Photoshop at work – and do ALL of our fliers and art – even designed the logo.
Found something today that had transparent images.
So yeah – had some fun with it.
My honey is into short hair – and I am SO not. But, when I IM’d im te photo of me with short hair – he said “You’re not fooling anyone.”
So I sent him the goatee thinking maybe that would do it?
Then I got creative.
Snake totally photo bombed me and my son’s girlfriend 😉
As for the hot tub – how dare they!
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On a realistic note – I’m still stressing.
Trying to live in the moment and be concious of days and weeks and months to come – and wondering if we’re even going to get married 5 months from now.
I laugh – I cry (a lot lately) – I stay grateful – but times are tough.
I would be lying if I said things are happening the way I thought they would.
But ‘things’ are happening – and they are good things.
Have to buckle down and MAKE shite happen!
After all, if a pig can be in a hot tub, I can make a wedding happen …. no?
Why Worry? Because I just do.
I stress.
I stress the heck out.
Over the tiniest of things – and it’s SO very real to me.
“You think too much” is probably one of the most said to me comments.
And yeah, I do, honestly totally believe in this:
However, I’m also the girl who worries about inanimate objects.
Like the avocado I ate tonight.
Does it LOOK like it wants to be eaten???
Must have been horrifying for the poor thing!
I posted this on my Facebook this morning:
I CAN not help it!!!!!
I think being a single mom for so many years just infiltrated this in my bloodstream!
Not having a ‘plan B’
Sometimes not even having a ‘plan A’
So when my ‘check engine’ light went on this weekend, I might as well have been holding a tarantula in my hand whilst looking at a tornado.
Seriously.
Car problems are in my top 5 things I stress and freak out about.
And so, when it’s something similar (ok, EXACTLY LIKE) what I experienced 8 months ago and $700 ago – I freaking worry.
They could find nothing wrong – and I drove my car home – NOT feeling like I’d had a reprieve, but feeling like ‘Murphy’s Law” is in effect and for SURE my engine light is comin’ on again – and the 4 mechanics that drove my car into a gasless situation will suddenly be enlightened by the magic of the false computer readout!
Bottom line, I don’t believe them. I think it’s gonna happen again when I’m on my own with no witnesses.
But, even so:
Me: You know, there are people in the hospital right now, in waiting rooms of hospitals, that would give anything for my first world problems.
My Honey: Yeah
Me: I don’t want a lot of money – Just ‘Enough’. So that if an issue comes up, I can handle it. Someone says their tooth hurts, I can say, “Here! Go to the dentist.” I don’t need jewelry, perfume, fancy clothes – Just … enough
And I mean that.
I’ve worked hard – all my life. I wish for ‘enough’
Then I see this happen in my room and know …. we could live like this FOREVER if we had ‘enough’ for emergencies.
I’m SO grateful.
“A Whole Lotta Love …”
I have to say, I had the most ah-mazing birthday weekend ever!
First of all, I’ve never had a ‘birthday weekend’.
I know people who celebrate birthday MONTHS – birthday WEEKS – I’ve only ever done the one day.
So, this year, not only did I get to have fun on the day of with co-workers and then my family at home, but the next day more was to come!
Saturday, it was planned that we’d all head over to my moms and enjoy the company and the pool and sashimi! Nic’s girlfriend met us there and the four of us were in swimwear in no time.
Played Marco Polo – tried to dive (I can’t dive) – laughed, a LOT, while my parents and Jim chatted poolside.
Then came the surprise.
I was handed a card containing coveted tickets to the Led Zeppelin Experience concert that night – (With Jason Bonham) it was then announced by my honey that, oh, and by the way, we had a room for the night.
Everyone had known about this for 2 weeks – and had done a VERY good job at keeping mum about it.
It’s hard to surprise me – but surprised I was.
Here’s some photos of the weekend.
Funny Jim, Funny ….
Probably I should have been quicker with the candles??
My flowers with our epic Avengers art in the background
My guys
Tub time
My bikini finally sees the light of day …
Only downside? On the way back from my moms, the damn ‘check engine’ light came on in my car and the exact same problem I had late last year, was happening again.
Nothing puts my stomach in knots more than car issues!!!
Car not shifting – RPMs trying to hit new heights.
My car is back at the shop … and I’m PRAYING the parts are still under warranty – because there is nothing in the coffer for repairs.
My honey told me he was “sorry for all the unneeded stress.” In a recent IM
My response?
“Stress is never needed … and car problems just happen – no one deserves to deal with it. There are people who woke up today without their children or their honey … I’m a lucky girl. We’ll get through this – somehow.”
And we will.
Somehow.
After such a gorgeous weekend, I have nothing but gratitude and amazing memories to get me through.
And I’ve got ‘A Whole Lotta Love’.
Pepper and Iron Man
Just for fun, we tried to duplicate this lol.
Does he look mad? Good thing he’s not portraying the Hulk.
Still looks a little mad ….
Not anymore.
Then there was this:
This is where my honey and my son sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me and for whatever reason, it’s not loading.
Doesn’t matter.
1. I am grateful to be alive
2. I am grateful for eveyone I love to have awoken today too
3. I am grateful I laughed
4. I am grateul for an opportunity to TELL those people I LOVE YOU
5. I’m just freaking grateful.
I really am. And, my birthday doesn’t mean ‘stuff’ anymore, but my close ones sure hooked me up anyway.
And yeah, I’m a nerd.
Debauchery Soup 