Interview with Rainer part Two … About God
Well, it’s been a few years, but here is part two. In light of the New Zealand massacre I feel obliged, again, to Never Forget,
Not so much obliged. It is my honor. My duty, as a human.
It is important. I never stopped.
And, Rainer is important.
He is a huge part of my past and my memories. And has dedicated his life to um, not, ‘reversing’ but, healing the scars of his ancestry.
He made me grow as a person.
I always fall head first into anything that intrigues me, and yes, at first, it was the documentary. But, once I knew him, I felt so comfortable and safe and later so loved.
But, that was years ago.
We managed, somehow, to reconnect.
I asked him, “What haven’t you been asked about, that you want to answer?”
I think the best way to share this interview is in our emails.
I should mention, he’s ill. And, in keeping with our friendship – and secrets – I can’t divulge the facts.
So, thinking on a topic, I decided (after he declined) God. To choose Religion.
Having death in our path causes one to ponder no?
I lost one of my best friends to cancer. She was an advocate for children. Unselfish. Completely fucking amazing – and – told me, “I don’t wan’t to go, I’m not ready.”
What ‘God’ takes someone who gives so much on the planet?
How is it that completely awful people still stride this earth and those with love and compassion in their hearts are taken??
And in keeping with my personal theory, here are our emails.
Me: Do you believe in God? Why or why not?
Me: I also think, what kind of ‘father’ would allow such horror, as you mentioned. So many good things hurt and harmed that were innocent. I also asked “In pain or in despair you don’t reach out to something ‘bigger’ than you or the planet?”
Him: Unfortunately I have to disappoint you, with my heart operation it was not possible any more in time, everything went so fast.
With everything else I also ask of course: Why me ?
But I do not address it to God, I can explain it to you also only with difficulty.
I was also too much disappointed by the Protestant Church, which is why I left it long ago. There you don’t get adequate help, pious sayings that mean nothing to me and can do without you.
They should rather change their politics and also admit if they have done something wrong and do not hide behind the institution church.
And to know exactly, they regulate that so that it does not cast a bad permanent light on the church.
No I do not pray.
It comes as it has to come, that doesn’t change the church either.
I believe in true love and friendship, even if it was denied me often enough in my life, or even abused. But I continue to believe in it, and at some point it will be true.
And I believe in what I am doing and that it is sincere and good and helps even if it is a slow success but it is one to see. I believe in many things but not in the institution church.
Me: Notice, the door to the cage is open. Even a fake birdcage I can’t close. I care too much. I agree, love and friendship is a higher power. And, I’m hoping the bible was right when it said, Jesus can see into your heart. I’m not religious, but, should I be judged, ‘it’ will see the real me in my heart. I do have one question for you. What do you to regret? If you could say something different or be different, what would it be?
Him: Our situation back then that I deeply regret, but otherwise I don’t really regret anything.
I see it all in a certain area of fate… You can’t change it in advance anyway, it comes as it comes.
Every day is a new challenge.
And I don’t mean by fate the biblical variant… I have done the most possible thing in my life that I can do to make my environment more beautiful.
I’ve always been faithful in life, I don’t drink, I don’t take drugs…I think more doesn’t work…and I’ve always treated friends as friends and stood by their side like a rock in the surf in an emergency.
I take care of people who need help, I have taken care of my mum self-sacrificingly without thinking of myself. I have always been a good caring father and grandfather.
We continue this journey together as friends. And, he IS an amazing father and grand-father. And friend. I will be forever grateful that our paths crossed.
As a side note, which, seems completely awful calling it so – I also interviewed a survivor – and I didn’t want to make this a piece about the past. But, (again) in light of current events, supremacists are gaining ground and feeling comfortable. I shall never forget the survivor who told me more than any history book could. That they ate their own lice for protein in the camp. I shudder. I’m disgusted and am SO proud that New Zealand has instantly said they are going to change their gun laws. That’s my personal opinion, not Rainer’s or any one else.
‘Never Forget’ and Never Forget To Vote!
Today has got to be one the best days yet for my love, Rainer.
I can’t help but smile knowing how much fruit is being born from years and years of effort.
His twitter feed has been alive with positive comments – support and appreciation.
I know that does his heart and soul good. He has hoped for so much, expected so little and is humbly shocked by the response today.
My shadowed man, bathed in light.
But more than that – the importance of his work is being noticed for what it is.
Years of facing opposition and negativity for fighting the good fight is paling in comparison to the outpour of love from those that saw this today:
I am so proud. So grateful for everyone involved in the campaign.
Please visit this site: http://www.neverforgettovote.com
I am once again reminded, that there is such GOOD in the world.
We must never forget! And we must always be brave and proactive.
We can all make a difference!
I’ve also updated our website: http://www.daserbedeskommandanten.com
You can find links to recent activity and interviews, and behind the scenes photos of the making of the above campaign video.
I’ll be updating as fast as I can with upcoming media events etc.
Thank you, to all of Rainer’s new followers – and to all involved in supporting this cause.
Never Forget To Vote!
Rainer’s interview with Barry Shainbaum
Holocaust Remembrance Day.
If you missed Rainer’s interview with Barry Shainbaum today, click this link tomorrow and watch for the recording to appear in the ‘previous guests’ category.
After a long, frustrating and VERY blog worthy weekend – it put a smile on my face and filled my heart to hear my love do such an amazing job. At midnight no less, with a plane trip in just a few hours to give more of himself to his cause.
I’m so proud that no matter what, he continues his work tirelessly – to help build bridges and to be a conduit for healing and understanding.
For those who didn’t get the website address – it is http://www.daserbedeskommandanten.com and is presented in both English and German.
Take a moment to remember today.
Harsh Reminder to Remember
Flyers were allegedly handed out earlier this week to Jewish Ukrainians leaving synagogue in the eastern city of Donestk.
While Denis Pushilin denies the validity of the content or being responsible for the creation and distribution – he does not deny the incident occurred and since images have surfaced, he obviously cannot deny the existence of this antisemitic material.
No matter who printed and handed out these leaflets, what disturbs me, other than their sheer existence, is that there continues to be groups that provoke and manipulate at the expense of the Jewish people.
Holocaust Remembrance Day begins April 27th and ends in the evening of April 28th. (The anniversary of the liberation of Auschwitz-Birkenau.)
I can only hope that this recent disgusting display of ignorance and racism serves to draw more attention to that day.
There must continue to be conversation!
We must never forget!
Appropriately, Rainer Hoess will be giving a radio interview on April 27th – click the link to our website for more information:
I was asked after I posted my interview almost a year ago, why he continues to speak out.
Because simply, he is deeply horrified by the actions of his grandfather and refuses to leave his family with such a legacy.
Because someone MUST continue to speak out.
Because there is always a chance for hope to grow when the brave step out of the shadows.
Many, many good people do – they don’t give up. They keep educating the young and reminding the old because it MUST be done!
We cannot be apathetic and risk allowing the past to repeat.