Something I had been looking forward to and planning for did not come to pass.
I don’t know how I really feel about that right now, or if I should even be thinking about how I feel.
It seems somehow selfish to be disappointed – sad – confused.
Regardless, there is a sensation in the part of my heart that still believed in fairy tales, akin to having the wind punched out of me.
My work week had not ended on a high note either – I overheard an inaccurate account of something that I was a part of.
What bothered me most about that was being reminded, once again, that I am naive and gullible when it comes to placing my exuberance and trust into the hands of others.
I forget that.
I think the best of everyone. I don’t expect it, but I give my trust easily.
So I’m sitting in my little sanctuary – and trying to process the latest news – and I feel numb.
What I know to be true are the following things:
I’ll never stop believing there is good.
I’ll never stop seeing good in others.
I’ll always give the benefit of the doubt to those who may not prove to have deserved it.
I’ll always give those who have given me reason to doubt, a second chance.
I will show up, no matter where it is, with all I have to give. Whether it’s work, friendship, love …
When I ready myself to sleep – I will ask myself if I accomplished those things.
My list of things I’m grateful for, far outweighs any complaints I could write down.
Among them, of course, my son – the irony that the picture I used above is from the song ‘Beautiful Boy’ has not escaped me.
And this phone call – from a dear friend who reached out – to help me process the matter of the heart.
I know this to be true too.
I am rich with the most important treasures.
And if I am never to have a glass slipper placed on my foot – I will walk bare footed.
Posted on February 9, 2014, in Gratitude, Uncategorized and tagged disappointment, faith, gratitude, Love, trust, work. Bookmark the permalink. 9 Comments.
Hang in there. Chin up. Life is full of disappointments, and the challenge is in how we rebound from them. I have faith in you. 🙂
I have faith in me too.
You’re awesome. You will be fine. 🙂
My heart breaks with you Amanda. Please know you are a very bright star in a dark universe and that you are loved.
thank you. You are loved right back.
I’m sorry this happened for you…as your number one fan, I wish only good things for you all the time.
Aw … I’m honored such a beautiful soul is my #1 fan. I have good things all the time. I wanted to share that even when things don’t go the way I want them to, life is still beautiul. I hold on to ‘good’ and ‘hope’. No matter what. I know you are the same way. xxx
Love you. We wil talk tomorrow face to face. Til then “chin up”. Your day will come.