My bird is spreading his wings.
I find myself alone on a school night while he enjoys an evening with a friend. I’ve been catching glimpses lately of ‘life sans bird’.
I’ve wished sometimes I could go back in time and speak to the younger me, warn of pitfalls, give sage advice and offer tips for succeeding in ‘life’. But I wouldn’t have listened to me – who am I kidding, and really, who would I be if I hadn’t made my mistakes?
It’s with this knowledge that I know I can’t save my son from making his own mistakes. And would it really be ‘saving’ – after all, we only grow from experience.
He’s going to get his heart broken. He’s going to break a heart. He’ll find himself in precarious situations and he’ll know disappointment and loss.
My hope is that I have made an impression on him. That he’s seen through example that gratitude, hard work and faith can make life so beautiful. My hope is that adversity will not stop him from flying and that he ends up soaring.
Every day I tell him “I love you” and every day we laugh. I apologize when I’m wrong or when I’m sour.
I’m so excited to watch him become the man he’s meant to be! It’s like reading a book that you love from the very first page. Not wanting to put it down – savoring every word and every chapter!! The best part though, God willing, is unlike a book – I’ll see my favorite character continue to grow and be a part of his story.
I can’t describe with adequate words how very much I love my bird. From the moment I heard “It’s a son!” My first word to him “Hi” (lol) I’ve been in love. I watch him with wonderment.
Whoever he decides to be, whatever path he decides to take – I’m truly blessed to have had the privilege of even knowing him.
I am my favorite person in the whole world’s mother. What a gift!
I’ll be OK when the nest is empty – because I’m not lonely alone. I like myself. I hope that example most of all has made an impression on him. I think it has. Pretty sure I’ve raised a young man who is comfortable in his own skin.