“Her mom already bought a one way ticket … It’s happening”

This is the most important post I will ever write and I already feel like I’ve failed. Because, what mother can put into words how much their child means to them?

I have classical music playing in the background and it’s only adding to my emotional state right now.

My ‘Bird’ is leaving.

as he should.

I look at this photo and remember that Telly Tubbies costumes weren’t available then, I sewed this.  My mom helped with the head.

I look at this photo and remember, it was our first REAL vacation.  To Disneyland.  I had worked SO hard for it.  And the co-workers I had in California had those stuffed animals in our room when we got there.  They knew, they knew I had been waiting so long to give Nic and I ‘something’.

We also received a breakfast with the characters.

There was more …

And

So, we didn’t take so many vacations as I wish we had.

We had to make a moment a lifetime.

I only had so many vacation days and sick days …. Let’s face it, when your kid is small, ALL sick days go to them and you don’t get to be ill. Lol.

Then there’s these things.

My Nannie, who has passed.  With her forever tissue. LOL!  ALWAYS had a tissue up her sleeve.

And

Some sort of holiday at my parents home.

First year in High School and not feeling good about himself, how beautiful is this picture and who cruel can we be???

Enjoying the Colorado River before getting on a “sea do” (really? )

We grow now.

My Christmas boy – who got the Lego Star Wars he wanted..

My Oatman boy who is smiling as we had lunch.

Then he grew …

And grew …

And grew …

And, now … I have the love of my life leaving on January the 6th.

I am SO happy he has a future with someone he loves.  And, I’m glad he’s so brave. I don’t know how he is. I certainly am not.

My son has outdone me.

And, for that, I’m grateful and proud!!!!!!

But please know, you are the love of my life. And, until you have YOUR baby, you’re just NOT going to get it .  You won’t.  You can’t.  You are my world.  My love. My compass.

And I will forever love you.